Jennette McCurdy kept a dark secret while playing in the hit series " iCarly and its spinoff "Sam and Cat.
On Thursday, the actress revealed that 'she was fighting the disorders of the 'diet for years, including anorexia, binge eating, and bulimia.
"I ' ve been messy for a long time " said the 29 year old player at People magazine . "But I don't obsessively think about food anymore. And I never believed that was possible. "
According to the outlet, McCurdy had 11years old when introduced to restrictive eating by her mother Debbie. McCurdy claimed that the matriarch abused her both physically and mentally. The former child star has a next memoir in the works which will detail these struggles.
'ICARLY ' STAR JENNETTE MCCURDY RECALLS THE PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE OF THE MOTHER DURING CHILDHOOD
Jennette McCurdy plans to publish a memoir that will detail her struggles. (Photo by George Pimentel / WireImage / Images)
"My mom said she could teach me calorie counting and we could be a team, but I had to keep it a secret, "McCurdy said. " I thought it was an opportunity for my mom and I to be closer. "
McCurdy said that at one point she was living on 1,000 calories a day and "sometimes I ate even less because I wanted my mom to be proud. " The outlet shared that at At the time she was cast for "iCarly ", McCurdy was suffering from anorexia.
McCurdy said no one on set knew she was privately fighting the mess.
"Ironically, my character 's hallmark is that she lovesfood, "McCurdy thought. " I would have scenes where I had to eat and they would have a spit bucket. But I would be afraid there were still calories left in my body. "
When McCurdy was 18, Debbie was diagnosed with cancer for the second time. at that point she "began to overeat " and "would eat whatever she saw.
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cast members 'iCarly ' (left to right) Noah Munck, Miranda Cosgrove, Jerry Trainor, Jeanette McCurdy and Nathan Kress, circa 2012. (Photo by Paul Morigi / Images for Nickelodeon)
The matriarch died in 2013. McCurdy said she started to purge herself to deal with the death of her mother and that she was vomiting "up to 10 times a day ".
"Bulimia took over my life very quickly, "she said. "… It was a full-time job, so there was no space to deal with my mother's problems or grieving.
McCurdy was in the room co-star Miranda Cosgrove's bathing suit when she'st passed out from the purge. This experience upset her.
"… I could have died choking on my own vomit, " he said.
The media also revealed that at one point McCurdy lost a tooth after his enamel was worn away by stomach acids from the purge. This incident took place in the toilet of an airplane. McCurdy knew she needed help.
Jennette McCurdy said that food is no longer its mechanism of adaptation. (Photo by Steve Granitz / WireImage / Images)
McCurdy has credited two years of Intensive Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) for the 'Helping not only cope with eating disorders, but also the death of her mother. Today she said that food is no longer her coping mechanism.
"I haven't bunged, purged, or restricted in years," she said. "And I feel very deeply and very strongly about saying that I 'I've finally recovered. "